People tell me they idolise me want to be like me but I tell them 'trust me you don't want my life.' I've been a very tortured soul.
Just because I'm talking about something that might have been a sad or painful situation doesn't mean that I'm sad or tortured 24 hours a day any more than anybody else is.
There was a whole language that I could never make function for myself in relationship to painting and that was attitudes like tortured struggle pain.
You know in my music career there was a moment where the irony was just so heavy. There were people in my audience that were the reason I developed neuroses. These people that tortured my life were using my art my poetry as fuel for them to torture other people.
Torture is such a slippery slope as soon as you allow a society or any legal system to do that almost instantly you get a situation where people are being tortured for very trivial reasons.
I have been thinking about the notion of perfect love as being without fear and what that means for us in a world that's becoming increasingly xenophobic tortured by fundamentalism and nationalism.
I studied Hitchcock a little bit at University and knew the famous story about the Birds - that he'd tortured Tippi for a day using real birds. I had no idea that it was a five-day onslaught and that it was the tip of an iceberg that carried on through to another film.
I am tortured when I am away from my family from my children. I am horribly guilt-ridden.
As a reward for their efforts however those early Christians were beaten stoned to death thrown to the lions tortured and crucified. Every conceivable method was used to stop them from talking.
Men do not accept their prophets and slay them but they love their martyrs and worship those whom they have tortured to death.
My imagination completely controls me and forever feeds the fire that burns with dark red light in my heart by bringing me the best dreams. I've always had a wild imagination a big heart and a tortured soul so I feel that dark fantasy love and horror are in my blood.