Just in our lifetime our society has become looser and more private it becomes extremely difficult to hold to any permanent commitment whatever least of all to organized religion.
It is very reasonable to worry about the harm done by organized religion and to prefer looser and more private arrangements.
I don't know whether it's age or maturity but I certainly find myself committed more and more to the looser forms of Western democracy at any price.
My goal when I started out was to get to the point where I could tour a lot and make a living which means getting paid enough to hire my own band travel and end up with a bit of money but I'm still nowhere near that point. Because I didn't have a band and fan base when I started I did everything backward.